random thoughts~ why am i always the one ending up unhappy?

when can i really get my true happiness? or is there even any?

hai~ maybe i shld carry my life with a different prospect.. maybe

i shld really be more outing~ haha... hope daddy allow me to go

out to club ~ looking forward.. gonna try alot of things!! omg!!!

excited~ is the exact word.. maybe i really belong there? dunno

also... might wana give drinking a try... well.. at least i will be happy

for a long period of time.. i guess.... haish...... long term happiness

is what i am searching hard for... hope you guys too ^^

ps : Just some crazy thoughts of mine... hope you are a brand new person ^^